The Way of the Curse

I see you everyday
And, God, you take my breath away!
That look, never seizes to behold me
The sad thing is that I can’t do anything

I think of you all the time
I dream of you every night
Then still I see you everyday
And you don’t even think of me

Do I have to throw a stone
And race it and make it hit me?
Do I have to make a fool out of myself?
Just to let you see what I say and feel is true?

Do I have to lie for you?
Do I have to die for you?
Fine because I already did
Just to prove myself

But what do I get from all these?
What do I gain? What do I lose?
I give love and I get pain
But for you it’s nothing; all in vain

My end has come
You killed me and I died
Yet I liked it, you can kill me twice
How many times, it doesn’t matter

But some things never change
And I guess I can’t change your mind
No matter how hard I try
No matter how hurt I get

1998