The Fallen

I crossed the ocean of peril and despair
Sailed through tears of melancholic fare
Drew sword with the creature of an icy glare
My flesh wounded, battered – this I bear

I stumbled, I crouched, I kneel, I get up
My sight gets blurred with the mist... I stop
Struggled to walk without the shield I dropped
I battled the waves, triumphant am I not?

The rain falls heavy blessing my jaded face
The smell of stale air gone in a haste
I stand alone naked with the grace
From a weary angel disguised as it strays

Clear is the sky as the day passes on
Indulging me like the spirit of a newborn
I leave behind the shell that was once torn
And start a new journey from here and beyond

February, 2004

Only Me

The sun stares down to touch my eyes
I close them to fend off the blinding light
I found myself hiding in the shades
A tree so proud, standing and reaching the sky

I whispered to my ears, I shall be like the tree
Hold my ground, unshaken, unbeaten
Always tall, I shall see them all
As strong as this earthen being I shall be

But then the wind blew and the leaves fell
How can a tree so sturdy bow down to the wind?
My hair danced about as it obeyed the bidding of the air
I smiled in fascination to this element unseen

My thoughts greeted me, I shall be like the wind
I shall go places unknown, silent yet stalwart
No barrier can hinder my passing so quick and mighty
As free as the clouds of the heavens I shall be

I walked a few paces to meet the river
The wind shouts aloud but the waters continue on
Deaf to the command, its journey to be fulfilled
I trotted about, touched its face as it dampens my soul

My senses taunted me, I shall be like the waters
I shall run unmoved as I glide through the soil
Flow lucidly, relentless my spirit as I toil
As clear and pure of heart, I shall be

The sun rises high, humid as I perspire
The water that runs gone quickly as they dry
Now then did I realize I cannot be all that I see
Be as one body with all that can be

I smiled in spite of myself
As I wander in this vast meadow so green
I can be like the water, the wind and the tree
All that there is but then again, I can be only me

January 24, 2004

Joy Rain

Cumulus clouds fill the skies
The mood gets gloomy as I am elated
The air gets thick and all seems to quiet
Heart beats slow down

The sky falls, water it seems
Colors become brighter, some darker
Tiny magnifying glasses all over my window
See how big the world is?

Gleefully I play, splashing about
Wetness cover my face
Glorified tears from goddesses up high
Pouring me with memories, joyful and sad

I lie on the grass, I let loose
My arms and legs wide apart
My mind soars high, reaching the far horizon
Seeking solace, my heart is meek

The rain kissing my lips
Water hugging my body giving a peculiar warmth
Yet the chill keeps my feet on the ground
As I drift in my aquatic daydream

The hissing sound, a music of peace
The joining of raindrops, a tie of friendship
I am blessed with love
This, my joy rain

January, 2004

Blessed Be

I asked for someone like you only in dreams
Never thought true it would be to
The best thing that happened to me is having met you
This heart left with a void only you can fill

Still I thought you to be a dream
I awake and find no words to describe your mystic aura
I forge an oath I will be here for you until the last
No obstacle is too great; that's how I love thee

December, 2003

Graceful Tears

The sun sets
Birds come home to their nests
As I lie here
Restless and uneasy
Tears begin to form in my eyes
...And then they roll down
Like raindrops falling from leaf to leaf
Until it falls to dampen the soil
I remember
The people I left behind
Every tear that I shed
Is a memory of my joys and pains
My hands clear my face
But wait
Let some remain-
The tears of joy; my treasure
The sun sets
I close my eyes and pray
As I lie here
Peaceful and calm.

1999

Shadows

In the shades of leaves
I hide from the thieves
I live so I may give
My life; I achieve

In the shades of leaves
Secrets do I keep
To places they may lead
Consequences they may give

In the shades of leaves
The wounds that I heal
To cure; I heed
I watch each soul that leaves

In the shades of leaves
I breathe so I may live
Its shadows to protect my crib
In the shades of leaves

1999

Confusion of Illusion

What can I do?
Mine soul is a screw
And I am so blue
Can't stop thinking of you

Times passing by...
Candles burning high...
How I wish I could fly
I want to reach the sky

Oh what a waste
Can't move in a haste
A snail I can't even chase
As I remember those days

Oh what am I to do?
Can't get over you
Abandon me mine crew
For mine heart sinks at ocean blue...

1998

End

Think mind, thoughts
Act do, speak
Think thoughts, walk
Sit rest, sleep

Read scribble, mind
Swim fly, fall
Run cry, reply
Sit sleep, rest

Laugh joy, rejoice
Spirits high, soar
Spin slide, glide
Sleep rest, sit

Think mind, illusions
Dream delusions, lies
Thoughts confusion, scream
Die dead, Death

1998

Nothingness

The dark, cold heavens fall upon the day
The shimmering light vanishes and lost its blaze
Feeling of emptiness conquers-its reign to stay
The long roads end and the promises that lay

My eyes are blinded with the hail storm that came
The stone frozen over the body I have slain
Kiss the day goodbye, forever in your hands the stain
Lost in the abyss as you shout and call out her name

From a far distance the blind eyes took a glimpse of the light
Never realized the courage, the madman in fright
A sweet, warm voice whispers to hold on tight
Silence was heard and the mourning of the speechless night

Memories escape the cup of restless souls
The thieves and their knives throw the gems that they stole
The world falls down to the ground to put an end to these sorrows
And the untruth left behind-the lies left to follow

1998

The Curse Revisited

I am afraid
I am afraid to be left out again
Bathing in mine blood; my own
Fighting a battle I cannot win

I am afraid
I am afraid that I cannot win
I cannot win for I already lost
A loss forever mine soul haunt

I will not try again
I will not even think of
Because all were said and done
There is nothing in this cup

I will live my life, yes I will live
Because I am survivor
Survivor; I am undead
Survivor of the damnation

I am not being played for
I am nobody's pawn, nobody's toy
You do not have the right
To invoke the emotion long dead

Now that I've said goodbye
All things attached must die
The illussions, the hopes, the lies
Shed no tear, show no cry

1998

Come What May, What May Come

Black sky over the barren land
Full moon shining as the cold winds howl
Crumbled, lost, torn apart the dead city
Rains pour, damp, plague-stricken place
Destruction left behind, desolation came
Burning buildings, structures turned to ashes
Worlds fall apart, dreams collide, illusion stays
Facing extinction, fighting for survival
Steal breath swiftly, life taken quickly
Shattered bones, screaming souls, your time has come
Time heals wounds but will wounds heal time?
Gates are open but the stairways are broken
Coming of the new dawn, entering oblivion
Darkness conquers, dreadful, horrible
The silence answers so loud, so deafening
A cry amidst the stillness of the night
The city where light never shone
Humanity in the brink of annihilation

1998

The Way of the Curse

I see you everyday
And, God, you take my breath away!
That look, never seizes to behold me
The sad thing is that I can’t do anything

I think of you all the time
I dream of you every night
Then still I see you everyday
And you don’t even think of me

Do I have to throw a stone
And race it and make it hit me?
Do I have to make a fool out of myself?
Just to let you see what I say and feel is true?

Do I have to lie for you?
Do I have to die for you?
Fine because I already did
Just to prove myself

But what do I get from all these?
What do I gain? What do I lose?
I give love and I get pain
But for you it’s nothing; all in vain

My end has come
You killed me and I died
Yet I liked it, you can kill me twice
How many times, it doesn’t matter

But some things never change
And I guess I can’t change your mind
No matter how hard I try
No matter how hurt I get

1998

My World, My Home, My Prison

I created a world
Out of illusion and dreams
Just to find out in the end
I created a prison of my own

I made it very special
So realistic that it fooled me
It fooled me for I am a fool
The creation I cannot un-make

I created a world
A world full of illusions
Filled with lies; mind in collision
This is my world – this is my home, my prison

1998

Untitled

Sky so blue
As beautiful as you
Minutes flew
And still you’re new
Nights may come
The light never gone
Heart so pure
A friend for sure

1998

Lumutang Sa Kawalan

Nasaan na ang panahon?
Mga nasayang na oras
Oras na ginugol sa kawalan
Na kailan ma’y ‘di na babalik

Nasaan na ang panahon?
Mga taong lumipas
Mga araw na naubos
Minuto at segundong naglaho

Nasaan na ang panahon?
Mga panahong nasunog
Natunaw parang isang kandila
Na kailan ma’y di na mabubuong muli

Nasaan na, nasaan na?
Mga pagkakataong pinalampas
Pinalampas, pinabayaan na oras
Hindi na mababawi ang mga pagkakamali

Nasaan na, bakit nawala?
Pumiglas, dumulas sa aking mga kamay
Lumayo, lumipad ‘di na naabot
Na kahit anong pilit, hindi na lalapit

Nasaan na ang panahon?
Bakit kay lupit?
Mga sugat na natamo
Panahon ang nagbigay, panahon din ang gagamot

Nasaana na, nasaan na?
Nasayang, nasayang…

1997

The Love Story

You said you’re sleepy, how could you?
When all I wanted to say was I love you
So I’ll be gone for a week or two
To keep myself away from you

You may not see me but I can see you
Watching all the things you do
You words came by but it also flew
You words left me and I was blue

So I looked for another and there she was
Love struck me like a lightning flash
Watching everything she does
Brought me joy and forgot my past

A letter of love then I sent
Hoping she’ll catch what I meant
I waited for the response ‘cause I just can’t…
Then I knew, for each other, we’re not meant

Now I’m sad, I’m back to zero
The last thing I need now is a hero
Then another came and eased my sorrows
She gave hope to my tomorrow

And for now I’ll just wait
‘cause I know it’s never too late
For you and I to be in this state
Where both time and love will not waste

1996

Do You Remember Me?

Do you remember me
the first time we met?
It was you I came to see,
so your attention I have to get

Do you remember me
when our eyes met?
It’s like you and I in the diamond sea
It’s like you and I in a romantic jet

Do you remember me?
My face did you see?
I just hope you’ll know me
‘cause I can’t control this feeling inside me

Do you remember me?
I wish you do
‘cause you, my love, set me free
From a heart of steel now melted by you.

1996

Lady of the Fifth Month

She touched my heart
From the very start
Just like a dart
It hit me hard

She smiled at me
Thank God, I can see
She set me free
For the world to be ruled by me

She called my name
I approached without shame
Just like a burning flame
My love is not lame

Oh Lady of the Fifth Month
I come to you with an open heart
Please do accept my love
To end this hopeless hunt

Oh Lady of the Fifth Month
I’ll give you all you want
Even death I will not daunt
Accept my love, please open your heart

I talked to her
In a sweet manner
I heard from her
A voice of anger

Accept my love she cannot
Accept my love she would not
Open her heart, I cannot
For her I am just a rot

So I hid in shame
A man not the same
For she will always blame
Me and my stupid game

Lady of the Fifth Month
She broke my heart
Tore my world apart
I did not even start

Lady of the Fifth Month
You words came to kill
Even for a man so ill
The truth remains, I love you still!

September, 1995