The Curse Revisited

I am afraid
I am afraid to be left out again
Bathing in mine blood; my own
Fighting a battle I cannot win

I am afraid
I am afraid that I cannot win
I cannot win for I already lost
A loss forever mine soul haunt

I will not try again
I will not even think of
Because all were said and done
There is nothing in this cup

I will live my life, yes I will live
Because I am survivor
Survivor; I am undead
Survivor of the damnation

I am not being played for
I am nobody's pawn, nobody's toy
You do not have the right
To invoke the emotion long dead

Now that I've said goodbye
All things attached must die
The illussions, the hopes, the lies
Shed no tear, show no cry

1998